Hurting So Good

Young Money Fic

"So are gonna tell him Nic?"
"I really don't know at this point Wayne."
"It's the right thing to do and you know it."
"I know but I'm just afraid of his reaction. What if he doesn't-"
"Nicki I know for a fact that he will. Drizzy is a really good guy. Okay, yes he left you. But it was for a good reason I'm sure and plus he's back. He's made mistakes but everyone does. You just have to trust him." I sighed. Then I looked down rubbing my hand on the pudge in my stomach.
"But what if I trust him and he leaves again. He'll not only be breaking my heart but his child's also. And I don't want that."
"I understand that too. Just think positive Nic iight?" Wayne said before getting up. I got up along with him and gave him a hug.
"Thank you so much Wayne. This talk means alot to me." I told him.
"Anytime Nic! I gotta go so I'll see you later. And make sure my godson safe lol."
" Haha Okay. Bye Wayne!" I waved at him before shutting it close. That talk gave me alot to think about. I really don't know what to do right now. I have to tell the truth. But what if he rejects me and doesn't want me back. Or maybe he found someone else. All in all, I need a solution. Ugh, why am I stressing? I should be resting. I walked over to the kitchen for a snack when I heard my blackberry go off indicating I had a voicemail. That's kinda weird since my phone wasn't off. I picked it up and listened to it.

"Um hey Nicki. This is Drake, I was just calling to see if we could, you know, kinda talk things out because I would really like for us to be on good terms. When you get this message just uh, call me back."
How ironic? This is just difficult for me and I shouldn't have to deal with this. He shouldn't have left me to get signed to another record label! My gosh this is getting to me. My head is throbbing and I feel dizzy. Taking deep breaths I drank a glass of water before going upstairs. Next thing I knew I was racing to the bathroom to throw up. I feel horrible. After puking my guts out, I went back to my room debating on calling Drake back or not. As much as I really didn't want to, I had to call him. It's for the sake of my, I mean our baby.

"Hello?" he picked up. I felt chills going down my spine.
"Hi Aubrey." I said.
"Oh hey Nicki. I'm guessing you got my message?"
"Yeah. And I totally agree. There are some things that I feel we should discuss."
"Hmm like?"
"Ummm I think it would be best to discuss them face to face and not over the phone. I mean unless you-"
"No no I totally agree. So uh when and where  would you like to meet?"
"I have to be at the studio at 3 tomorrow so maybe around noon at my house."
"Alright then well I'll see you tomorrow."
"Okay then."
"And um Nicki?"
"Yes?"
"Thank you."
"Oh um your welcome. Goodbye." I hung up the phone. It lifted a little bit of weight off my shoulders which felt good. I felt my tummy growl so I went to go fix us some lunch. After that I curled up on the couch with Oscar and Eleanor and my comforter and watched tv.
After that it had to be around ten so I went upstairs to go to bed. As I laid there all I could think about was Drake. He was the right one and is the right one for me, I just can't look past the heartbreak. After he left I just had to erase him from my mind completely. I moved from the YM mansion, gave all of his stuff or anything he'd bought me away, everything. But that wasn't enough at all. Especially when I found out I was pregnant with his baby. That's when I realised that I can't erase him from my mind. I can't block him out of my life. I love him too much. He was a really great person to me and treated me right. Never disrespected me or anything. And here I am carrying his 5 month son and hiding it from him. He's going to hate me for this. A couple tears fell down my face as I thought this. I just cant get him out of my mind.






After that little 2 hours of sleep I woke up the next day around 10:00am. I couldnt sleep with Drake on my mind and everything. Oh shit! I just thought about it Drake's gonna be here in a mere two hours and I'm not ready! Oh gosh why me? I hurried fast off my bed and to my bathroom. I was supposed to be taking a shower but morning sickness caught up with me. I was throwing up for nearly an hour! The joys of becoming a mother. Now with only 45 minutes to get ready, I hopped in the shower washing my body down. After that I got out, dried off and debated on what to wear. I guess I could go
with my black leggings and large grey tee. I sighed looking in the mirror. I better where all my nice clothes now while it lasts. Seems like I'm getting bigger everyday. I grabbed my pink YMCMB hoodie and put it just to be safe. I threw my hair into a messy bun. After getting dressed I was going to go downstairs to watch some television. I really hope this talk with Drake helps everything. I really believe were meant to be together. It's just that my past with men still haunts me and I get scared that maybe Aubrey would just be the same way. I don't know.
As I went downstairs I felt the slightest thump on my tummy I stopped and placed my hand on my tummy and jumped when I felt it again. The baby's kicking! Oh my gosh, this is such an experience for me to feel him or her moving inside of me. I just wished I had someone to share it with. I finished walking downstairs to go in the living room. My blackberry started ringing so I went to go answer it. It was Drake.

"Hello?"
"Hey its me. I'm outside."
"Oh okay you can just come in the doors unlocked already."
"Alright."
Then he hung up. I was so nervous I could barely stand. I heard him walk in so I went to greet him. Making sure he wasn't able to see my 5 month baby bump I adjusted my hoodie and walked into the front room.
"Hey Nicki." he said.
"Um hi." I said shyly going to hug him. It was a gentle one so he wasn't able to feel my pudge. He took a step back and just looked at me with a puzzled face.
"Whats wrong?" I asked him.
"Nothing. It's just that you look a little more different than before." he said. That made my heart skip a beat when he said that. I pushed my hair behind my ear looking down.
"Well you haven't seen me for almost 3 months so maybe thats it." I said. I tried not to come off to harsh but it was the truth.
"Yeah but still you know." he said with a half smile. It was a little silence until I spoke up.
"Um we can sit in the living room and talk. If you want." I told him.
"Oh okay." he said nonchalantly. I motioned him to follow me as I walked over and sat down on the couch. We were both facing each other but weren't looking towards one another. I had to admit it was a bit awkward; more for me than it was for him.
"Nicki I just came to talk and-"
"About?"
"About us."
"What do you mean us?"
"Our relationship Nicki."
"Oh, what about it? You'd rather get signed to another label and just up and leave without even thinking about me so there isn't-"
"What? Nicki how could you not think I was thinking about you?"
"Drake you LEFT me! Why else would I not think you were thinking about me? Obviously not since you just decided to apparently disappear from everyone for three months!!" I yelled. I was getting fed up and frustrated and my head was pounding in pain but that didn't stop me.
"I needed to think about some things Nicki! What would you have done in my position?!? Everyone on your ass about making the right choice and people turning on you! Your fans not having as much faith in you anymore!"
"Then if it was such a huge deal why did you decide to have a relationship?!? HUH? BECAUSE IF YOU COULDN'T DO IT WHY TRY. AND HOW DO YOU THINK I FEEL RIGHT NOW?!? YOU HURT ME DRAKE! YOU REALLY DID!!" I yelled with tears coming down my cheek. Maybe it was because this intense headache I was getting or the thought of him leaving me.
"NICKI IM SORRY I THOUGHT OUT OF ALL PEOPLE YOU ESPECIALLY WOULD UNDERSTAND!" he yelled. I stood up to try to balance myself. Everything was dizzy and the room was spinning.
"Baby I'm sorry! Please forgive me I just want a second chance!" he pleaded. He started getting up and held my waist.
"Drake.....noo, just stop right quick. I feel dizzy." I said.
"Nicki, what do you mean? Are you listening to me? I love you!" Before his hands made their way to my stomach I pushed them away. Thats when I knew this had to stop right away.
"Drake just....just please leave." I said tears strolling down my face.
"But Nicki I-"
"JUST GO!" I ordered. He gently let my hands go and just looked at me. He lifted my chin up with his hand and before I knew it his lips were connected with mine as he softly kissed me. God I missed his lips. Wait, what am I doing? I gently forced him away from me with all my might. He stood there looking at me with hurt in his eyes walking towards the door. I wiped my face leaning against the wall as he sighed and walked out of my house. After the door closed I just completely broke down. I slid down the wall and cried. I cried for myself, I cried for my baby, I cried for Aubrey. It was all too much for me I couldn't take it. I feel like the worst person in the world right now. The father of my baby just left out without even knowing we have a child together. How could I even let something like this happen?
I sat crying until about 1:00pm. I was finally able to get myself together and go upstairs to my room. I didn't have to be at the studio until 3:00 but I guess showing up a little earlier won't hurt. I changed into some jeans and got my purse and phone and headed out of the door. I texted SB telling him I was on my way. With everything that was on my mind and me trying to concentrate on the road was hard. I'm not even supposed to be stressingbout like this but it seems like theres no stopping.
Once I reached the studio my pounding headache came right back. I walked inside to see SB, Wayne and Baby.
"Whoa Barbie ain't you a little early?" Baby said. I sat my purse and other things down gently before sitting.
"Yeah. I am Baby, thanks for letting me know." I let out in a sarcastic tone. I really wasn't in the mood. He started raising both his hands up and shaking his head.
"Just trying to help." he told me. I rolled my eyes looking at him. I took out my notepad and pen and begin my process. It was really tough for me with the events of this morning on my  mind and this everlasting headache for me to write. I could barely concentrate on it let alone anything else. I closed my eyes rubbing my temples with the tips of my fingers before taking a deep breath.
"You iight Nic? Everything cool with you-"
"I'm fine Wayne." I said. Even though I wasn't I didn't feel like hearing anybody's mouth. As long as it was quiet I'd be okay.
"You know Nicki I think it'd be best for you and the baby if you'd just go home and get so-"
I Said I Was Fine! Doesn't Anyone Fucking Understand That? Leave Me The Hell Alone!!" I said raising my voice. I already told them I was fine now they were just pushing my buttons.

"Whoa Nicki just chill out!" Safaree said. "We're only trying to help you!"
"Well maybe I don't need any help! Don't you think?!"  I said standing up trying to gather my things for me to leave. Tears were now free falling from my face. I was beyond upset.
"You know what, since everyone wants me to leave I'll just go then!" I yelled. My head started feeling numb and I felt dizzy.
"Nicki we didn't mean it like that we just feel that you should get some sleep." Baby said. I started walking towards the door until I felt as if my weight was too much for me to carry. I struggled trying to regain my balance but fell to the floor where everything went black.


[Drake's POV]

I was at my condo just sitting at my dining room table thinkin about Nicki and I. I know I messed up, but I thought she'd understand. But I'm not letting this one thing stop me from getting her back. I'll keep trying if I have to!
I sat back in my chair with my hands on my head when I heard my phone go off.
"Hello?"
"Drake! We need you at the hospital now!"
"Wait, wait hold on. Whats going on?"
"Nicki's being rushed to the hospital!" At the sound of Nicki's name I felt everything in me literally drop.
"What happened?" I yelled trying to get all of my things and leave out of my condo.
"She just past out! We're not sure of everything."
"Alright! I'm on my way!" I said before ending the call. I couldn't let Nicki slip away like this, not now.





I arrived at the hospital SB told me to go to. Rushing in I seen Baby, SB, Wayne and the whole YM crew. I quickly made my way over to them.
"Yo Drizzy! Thank god you here man." Weezy said.
"Yeah, hows Nicki doing?! Is she okay and everything?" I asked frantically before sitting down.
"We don't know, we're still waiting in the nurse to come back." he said. I sat their with my head in my hands. How could something like this be happening? Wayne patted me on the back to calm me down.
"Man this is crazy! I just talked to her this morning!"
"You did?!?"
"Yeah I went to her house! And now she's in the hospital! I just feel like this was all my fault." I said.
"Naw, man its not your fault. Maybe she was just dehydrated or something. I'm positive that Nicki's going to make it out okay." Wayne said. Just then a nurse walked in the room.
"I'm looking for the Maraj family?" she said. Every single one of us stood up and went towards her.
"Is everything okay? How is she? Can we see her?" I asked.
"Nicki is fine. We were able to figure out what caused her to pass out. When she arrived here her blood pressure was really high so we were able to lower it. Also she was very dehydrated and hasn't had any sleep. So for the sake of her and the baby we're ordering for her to be on strict bedrest." she said. "Wait, what? What baby are you talking about? I think you have the wrong chart!" I said to her. She looked at the chart twice looking at papers.
"Umm, nope. Onika Maraj at 19 weeks is definitely correct. You guys could stay here while she rests and then you could go see her." she said. All of the color drained from my face and I sat back down. She's pregnant. 5 months pregnant with my child that I had no idea about. Which is crazy because I saw her today and she didn't even tell me. She kept it from me hidden. I was shocked, angry, pissed, and sad at the same time.
"I can't believe this." I said softly


[Nicki POV]

I laid in the hospital bed tired and scared. The doctor says due to my stress level I have a high-risk pregnancy. I was told that if my blood pressure had gotten any higher I would have slipped into a coma. I was beyond afraid. I cried when they told me that. The thought of me loosing my baby made me die a little inside. They said I was on strict bedrest for awhile and that we'd be okay. I was happy about that. I heard my door open and then someone come in.
"Whoever it is can you come back later please?" I said.
"No Nicki this can't wait." a familiar voice said. I turned around on my side to see Drake standing there. I sat there froze unable to move at all. He just stood there scanning me or my baby bump rather.
"D-Drake?" I stammered. He walked towards me. He was silent and didn't say a word. I protecticely placed my hand on my tummy. My heart was beating really fast and I could tell by the monitor. He came over and sat down next to me.
"Drake I-"
"No just stop right there Nicki." he said angrily.
"I cannot believe you right now. I mean this was just unbelievable. Why?"
"I-I don't know." Truth was I did know. After he left me I felt the need to keep him away from me and my baby but at the same time I couldn't. And besides, we just seen each other today for the first time.
"This was a real fucking low Nicki and you know it! Yeah I left you, but you kept me from knowing that you were pregnant with my child for 5 fucking months! I don't even know who you are anymore."
"Drake I'm sorry!" I said tears rushing down my face. He got up walking towards the door.
"Drake Please!" I pleaded. He just kept walking and left. Which was the very last time I saw him for awhile.

I'm now 7 months pregnant and finally decided to find out the sex. I was ecstatic when the nurse said I was having a boy! I still don't have a name for him yet but that can wait.  As far as my health, I was told by my doctor that I'm under a state of depression. It's not anything very serious but should be checked. I mean I have been sad lately especially after Aubrey and everything.

It was really rainy and dark outside so I was kind of scared being by myself. Safaree makes sure I'm okay and checks up on me every once a day but had some errands to do today. Sometime he spent the night and others he would leave after I had fallen asleep. He's been a very good friend to me and will probably be the closest thing to a father that the baby has. I decided to pop up some popcorn and watch a movie on Netflix. Almost halfway into the movie there was a faint knock at the door. I looked through my peephole to see a disheveled Drake at my doorstep. Oh my! I unlocked the door and opened it slowly to see him soaking wet, bloodshot eyes, and stuble on his face as if he hadn't shaved in awhile.
"Drake? Oh my gosh come in!" I said grabbing him by his hand and pulling him in. He just stood there swaying side to side.
"Hold on I'm gonna get you a dry towel. Stay right here!" I said before waddling to my laundry room to get a towel. I hurriedly came back and wrapped him with it.
"Hey Nicki!" he slurred. He almost fell losing his balance before I helped him over to the couch. He sat down on it of course soaking it. I was able to get two more towels for him and made sure the heat was on because he was shivering.
"How did you get here?" I asked him, but he stared at me like he was deaf.
"Drake, how'd you get here?" Iasked again. He sat up and almost fell forward until I caught him.
"Baby I need you to tell me how you got here alright?" I said. He was mumbling things but didn't speak up. He was drunk. I took his wet shirt off and placed it in the dryer along with his jeans. I gave him a big tshirt and one of SB's flannel pants. Before drying his clothes I searched his pockets for his phone or keys or something and got his phone. I set it down on the coffee table  when I came in the living room while trying to get Drake to talk.
"Why is the room spinning?" he said. He must've been wasted. He was trying to get up but I set him back down and let him rest his head on my chest while I was standing up. He laid just like that for awhile.
"Your so warm Nicki." he told me. I could smell the alcohol coming off of his breath. I softly rubbed the back of his head until he slid his head down to my baby bump where he kissed it and rested his head there with his arms wrapped around my waist. I was a little hesitant at first then I wrapped arms around him keeping him close. I missed his touch and his warmth so much.
I felt warm wetness on my shirt and heard his voice crack.
"Baby I'm so sorry! I'll never leave you or my baby again. I'm sorry Nicki!" he said. This brought tears to my eyes as I ran my fingers through the back of his head.
"It's okay baby. I forgive you Drake. I love you too." I cried. He stayed resting on my tummy sobbing and repeating over and over again that he was sorry. I took his arms from around me and kneeled down to his level. We were both face to face as I held his face staring deep into his eyes. I saw sorrow, love and forgiveness. I just had to forget about him leaving me. It was just for the best but I was just too stubborn to think about that. So stubborn that I kept him from knowing about his unborn son. The only person that was in the wrong was me. It was all my fault if I hadn't have been selfish. I felt all of my emotion pour out of my eyes. They were straight the Buckingham Fountain. I cried deeply into his chest soaking it like the rain did.
"I'm Sorry! Drake I Never Meant To Hurt You! Please Forgive Me! I'm Sorry! You Did Nothing Wrong! This Is All My Fault!" I cried letting my emotions take over me. Whether it was the depression I was in or him crying, I completely broke down. He held me tight to his chest trying to control his emotions. He rubbed my back in small circles and kissed my head.
"Baby I forgive you! It's okay I forgive you!" he cracked. He pulled me back for a second and caressed my face.
"I Love You." he said. He pulled me into a soft but very passionate kiss. His soft lips against mine felt wonderful. I could almost hear sparks flying in the background. This time I didn't want to pull back but had to to breathe. I gently released his lips from mine.
"I Love You Too Aubrey." I told him. He helped me up and laid me down on the couch placing soft kisses from my lips to my large tummy. There he rested his head against it listening to mine and the baby's heartbeat. I softly rubbed the back of his head admiring the sight. I knew he was going to love his baby. He rubbed my belly until he drifted to sleep. I gently slid him off of me making sure not to wake him up, waddling up to my room where I went to sleep.

[Drake's POV]

With the sun blinding me, I woke up to a pounding headache. What the hell did I do?

[14 Hours Before](3rd person)

Drake sat around his condo sulking and being sad. Ever since the day he visited Nicki at the hospital he'd been feeling guilty about the way he approached her; he knew he shouldn't have yelled at her that way and walked out, for the second time. He was so ashamed because he knew his mother never raised him like that. To not walk away from your problems and leave them. He wanted Nicki back so badly but he knew that she would probably never take him back again sadly. He wanted to marry her, be the best father to their child and live forever happily. But he highly doubted that that could happen. He laid his head on his granite countertop island  with a bottle of vodka next to him as he thought.
"Aye bruh! I'm here!" Forty said walking in. He found Drake in the kitchen resting his head. Forty sighed.
"Aye man look, I can't take it anymore. Seeing you like this is painful to me dude. You have to go talk to her and-"
"And what? So she can reject me? That's okay! I know she doesn't even want to see me. She probably hates me right now."
"Drake if theres one thing I'm sure of its that Nicki does not hate you!
"I did her so fucking wrong man! I left her for some bullshit ass label, then I walk out on her when I find out she's carrying my baby! What guy does that to a woman that he loves?" Drake said laying his head back down.
"Okay, yeah you made mistakes, and you were in the wrong. But you can't forget she was too. The both of yall need to get back together and solve this." Forty said walking towards him.
"Look, Nicki might not want you and probably dislikes you very much right now. But she loves you. She and that baby both need you. I know you don't want your child growing up without a father like you did do you?" Forty said and his words hit him like a ton of bricks. If Drake was going to give up this easily he'd be nothing but a coward like his father was. Which was something he did not want. He had to make a decision. He rose his head up and sighed deeply.
"I guess I could call her later on." he said.
"There we go! Its a start! Now lets go get us some drinks!" Forty said.
"I guess." Drake sluggishly climbed out of his chair and he and Forty walked out of the bar.
They were now there and Drake was just sipping his beer being silent, while his friend was watching the game and sipping his also. He looked over at Drake to see how he was.
"Aye come on man! Live a little!" Forty said. Drake took a deep breath and asked for a couple shots of vodka.
"There we go! Ha ha!" Forty said. Drake was starting to feel a little better and started ordering more shots and different drinks. Then before he knew it he was flat out drunk. He stumbled over the barstools and tables spilling drinks on random people until Forty knew it was time for them to head out.
"Iight man. Lets go you need to get back to the crib bruh!" Forty said trying to help Drake. He was waddling out of the bar as it started to rain. Forty put him in the backseat as Drake lounged lazily with his foot up against the window. Forty got into the car and started it up driving while hearing Drake mumbling in the back.
"You iight bruh?" Forty chuckled knowing he was wasted. Drake mumbled something again but this time a little louder.
"I wan see Nicki." he slurred. Forty's eyes got wide but squinted as he tried to keep an eye on the





I definitely had a hangover. I gently squinted my eyes so they could adjust to the light. I looked over at the coffee table and grabbed my phone. Wait, my cofffee table wasn't pink. And my curtains aren't like this. I saw that I was on a couch in a living room that wasn't mine. Everything was looking familiar. I sat up straight on the couch and scanned it. This was Nicki's house. How in the world did I end up here? What the hell? I looked down and saw that my clothes were missing and I had on sleepwear. I was starting to panic when I saw a missread text on my phone from Forty.

Srry, bruh I just had to



Okay so i wanna give a shoutout toTeaMINAJ_PYB for letting me have this story thank you so much my darling i love you muahh!!!!